What to do when you’re unsure… heck, right now I don’t know. Do I feel like pounding away at all the possibilities? Not really. Have you ever been in a situation where you really just didn’t know? If you had to make this life changing decision, with the weight of the world heavier than ever before…what would you do? How would you do decide?
Choose to be comfortable or uncomfortable? Choose the familiar or unknown? Oh and lets not forget, Life is Short.
ARE YOU?
Ever felt like you didn’t know what the heck you were doing? You look at your life and you say to yourself…what the heck am I doing?!
I sit at work and I say to myself, what am I doing, what is this for? Then I have to really think about it and remind myself why. The answer is I have a child to feed and take care of. I have a mortgage, car payment and bills to take care of. I need health insurance as well because in America healthcare is ridiculously expensive. Their handout consists of $200 a year with a deductible of $2500. Yes, this is the wonderful life of trading hours for dollars. Trading dollars for care. America’s healthcare is a joke. Canada sounds pretty good. Don’t get me wrong, I love America and truthfully I wouldn’t want to live anywhere else in the world. But, as a nation we are so screwed up.
We’re upon a financial crisis…why? Because we are TOP heavy. Period. Dishonest politicians. These educated politicians who went to college but don’t know how to balance a budget. This has gone on for so long that it’s become fairly unfix-able. The people always pay the price. And the rich always say we’ve earned it, but they forget about all the loop holes that defines the saying, “the rich get richer and the poor get poorer.” But the poor can’t keep playing pity me as well. It’s all a blame game if you ask me. I do have a problem with the middle class getting screwed over and over. If you looked at what we made decades ago, you’d know that we are actually very poor now. We make way less. Look it up.
BUT, the FACT is those things have no bearing on what I can do with my life. Cause you see, I control my life. The government can affect me somewhat. And so can people. But bottom line I control how I handle each and every situation and what the outcome will be. And so do you.
What do you choose?
Reflecting…
As I’m sitting here thinking about the world and my life, I’ve come to the realization that something is missing. I mean my life is pretty good. I have SO MUCH more than others have. At 31, I’d say I’ve done pretty good. With the little I have, I’ve been able to make it through some pretty tough times. I don’t have a huge family or lots of true friends. Just a handful.
I’m not rich but I do OK. My son is very well provided for. You can’t count the fact that I refuse to spend $200 on a pair of shoes that he will grow out of in 6 months. That’s just insane….right? I own a home, drive a nice car. My job pays me OK. A decent amount of vacation time. Benefits I mentioned.
My entrepreneur spirit is pretty fierce. I’m smart enough to figure out I can be my own boss and create my own fortune. This is a work in progress but I can guarantee you I’ll come out on top of this as well. I am very thankful for ambition because most people I know don’t have it.
But with all of this, I still feel like there is something missing. I sit here and I think to myself, what am I doing?! Spending 8 hours doing nothing. I mean it’s work, it pays the bills. But it’s soooo meaningless. A 9-5 use to not bother me so much. I busted my butt to succeed in the corporate world. At that time, it all seemed so worth it. The image, the business women working in a tall corporate, classy building. Now it’s like shoot me before I continue on a path of nothing-less. I mean I wouldn’t mind the image if it meant I was doing something meaningful. I think that’s the bottom line. I hate that I am wasting my time away doing something that does nothing for the world. It’s starting to eat me up like never before. But I have to work right? Gotta take care of the family.
So, what can I do? That, I am still in the process of figuring out. Volunteering as much as possible has been a high priority. It feels right, it feels good and it means something. For now, that’s all i can do. It may not be on a huge scale but it’s a start. I spend my time on a lot of social media sites. Spreading the word and I know I do help others in this form. Even changed some minds of some who totally didn’t agree with me before. Got others to vote and watched a presidential debate for the first time. People who didn’t know human trafficking is a booming business in 2013 now know. I even have some people questioning the carnivore life style. Social media is powerful. Some have no idea how much good you can do with it. There is always a bad side of course, like anything else. Gotta be smart and extremely careful.
I guess for now I’ll keep truckin. I can’t dwell in misery. Boredom is painful, but I guess that will be the motivating factor to keep me pushing forward. Working on my new to-do list. Adventure here I come 
I love when you’re going through something and the universe sends you a message. Some people may say it’s God, whatever you believe in is fine. Just as long as it helps get you through. For me, it’s the universe. I believe the universe holds great power and energy. It works with us in magical ways. It’s unclear exactly how, but I know from experience my life has had plenty of unsure moments. During those moments, messages in the form of people, incidents and even quotes have helped me. Today I was running through my twitter feed and I read…“Only you can find inner peace.”
Pretty ironic for me because I’ve had quite the weekend. Not with anyone, just myself. Ever get to a point in your life where you question EVERYTHING and EVERYONE? If so, then you know my mind was running a thousand miles a minute. You play back past situations. You tell yourself if things were this way or that way…it would be better. If this or that…<<< that constantly plays in your mind. You even tell yourself that’s non sense as you’re dissecting the problem, person or situation. We try to think of solutions. What can work? What can’t? What has the past shown? Is it always the same? Is this never-ending? Different point of views, different plans of action…but the outcome…is always the same?
See how much “question” there is? So much uncertainty.
My weekend was spent like this. Replays. Questions. Today, a couple of days later the universe finally answers me, in the form of a tweet LOL.
“Only you can find inner peace.” Life Tools <<< I was like…well shit, I knew this. I spend my time fighting with myself, knowing how toxic it is. Causing pain and frustration. I was trying to find peace, happiness. Looking towards others to help me feel the way I should feel on my own.
It’s natural to want, we humans need emotional connection. We want to feel love, pleasure, happiness, appreciation, acceptance, the list goes on. It makes us feel good. When these feelings aren’t met, we immediately feel angry, sad.
Do we have the right to feel this way? It depends on the situation. We can’t control how people behave. We can’t always have what we want, unfortunately :( What are we to do with this dilemma? The only thing I came up with is learn how to accept things as they are. I didn’t say settle, I said accept. You have 2 choices, find a solution or move on. You control the outcome of your emotions. How you go about it will either result in sorrow or relief. But at least you get to decide
Do you have inner peace? Are you happy with yourself? Do you feel whole? Complete? Reflect on your behavior when you’re mad or upset, you’ll probably find the answer. Especially in how you deal with it.
Ask yourself, as I ask myself…
Blame a lot? Well why are you letting someone control how you feel? You don’t have to deal with it. Make a choice. You see, when you have inner peace, no one controls how you feel. You’re at peace with yourself and with what life is. When you look ahead, you see life as a journey to be conquered, with endless possibilities. No one person, one thing, one moment will deter you from your path. You ALONE appreciates life, another day, everyday. When you feel this way, you have inner peace. To let go and just be is such a peaceful way to live life isn’t it?
Thank you to the universe. Sometimes it’s hard for me to see clearly. Reality is lost when my emotions are out of sync with common sense. I won’t feel bad You feel like this sometimes too right? (hopefully you said yes :p )
I know with whatever happens in life, we are meant to be where we are. Everything happens for a reason. We are forever growing. Remember, it’s a journey. Inner peace is progression, it has to be practiced. What goes up must come down, problems are inevitable. We just have to find a balance and remember that moments are only moments. What you feel inside is the key to living the most wonderful life.
Let’s just breath.
“You must constantly ask yourself these questions: Who am I around? What are they doing to me? What have they got me reading? What have they got me saying? Where do they have me going? What do they have me thinking? And most important, what do they have me becoming? Then ask yourself the big question: Is that okay?” — Jim Rohn
Who am I around? I’m around people who love me unconditionally. They make me happy and make me want to be the greatest best friend I can be!
I cracked, I’ve gone back to Facebook. What an addict! Is it really that great? Must be! And wow, there’s a whole new layout and I think it’s sooo pretty It’s the little things LOL.
Let me explain. I sent a tweet asking when should I move from wordpress.com to wordpress.org and I didn’t receive any help. I’ve googled and pretty much get the same answers. The biggest reason is switching would cost me money. Most articles I read informed me of the benefits but not when it would be the RIGHT time to fork out some cash. So I thought why not ask my fellow bloggers. I’m in a community blogging group on Facebook. That was the most logical choice and I knew I’d get a response. Guess what? I did, almost immediately. I could have saved a lot of time, and time is precious!
I can easily go back and deactivate it. But, Facebook has captured my attention once again. I’ve talked myself into why I should just leave my profile active.
1) Business. My main reason for getting a Facebook in the first place was for business. I, like so many others are involved with MLM companies and are affiliates as well.
2) Outsourcing. Connecting with like-minded individuals equals help. I may not know them personally but I’ve built worthy relationships. I was able to have someone create a header for my blog for free when she normally charges…I believe $200 an hour. And she did a great job!
3) Advice. I can get free, helpful advice with barely any lag time.
4) Influence. I am able to share what’s important to me. I’ve been able to shed light on some very important issues that have grabbed the attention of others. Things they may have never thought about before are now in their thinking. It’s like planting seeds for me. Some will flourish, some won’t. 1 out of 10 works for me.
Bottom line, Facebook can really be useful if used correctly. I will have to discipline myself in the way I do with my emails. I only “try” to check them twice a day. I’ve learned how to manage my time focusing on what’s important. If what you’re doing isn’t leading you closer to your goal, then what are you doing? I’ve been fooled into believing that being productive meant more posts, more checking emails, more checking my social sites. It’s not! Really a waste of time. I should be pushing out content. Tangible material.
Now that I’ve come to the conclusion that I do like Facebook, I have to be responsible for my own actions. Facebook doesn’t waste my time, I waste my time. I’ve provided a worksheet that I received from Rich Dad, Robert Kiyosaki. I’m assuming most of you know him? Him and his wife both are very successful. If you’re looking for coaching, they are great but at a very high price. You can learn on your own, but they will help you get there faster. I’ve gone to a few meetings and coaching sessions. But I’m someone who won’t pay more than I want to. Anyways, this was part of a paid packet and now I’m giving it to you for free. Hopefully it helps you
Click on Time Use. It will take you to another page. Click on it again and it should download for you. This is one of the reason why I SHOULD go wordpress.ORG. It will be much simpler.
CLICK HERE >>>>> Time Use <<<<<
I could spend a lifetime on the beach. I wouldn’t need much. No need for a car, big house, much furniture or even much clothes for that matter 
I spent the weekend beach front in San Francisco. Had a little picnic and tried to keep my little best friend from biting other dogs LOL. Did some hiking. Spent time with my family. My son had a friend over, said it was his birthday and he wanted to spend time with us…? I was a little confused. But that’s besides the point. I set off to have a great weekend after a stressful week and I did. I wonder why I don’t do much of it. Doesn’t take much to do what you want, you just have to make it a point to do it. No excuses. So, what did you do this past weekend? What’s the plan for next? I think it’s time to jot down a list.
Here are a few pictures I’d like to share
There’s nothing like looking out into the ocean. There’s nothing like the sound of waves drifting, crashing perfectly against the rocks. Beautiful, I’m lost in all its glory. Time is still, my mind is free. I’m weightless, immerse in the moment. I stare off into the ocean thinking, there isn’t anything more heavenly.
Beauty and all it’s glory.
Perfect ocean view. Chips are my weakness 
It’s seriously a long trail!
Awwwwwwwwww
To the left is my baby Macie and to the right is my baby Lucy who is my trouble maker when we’re out in public!
Yes, it’s Friday – USA time
This weekend I am going to focus on my balance sheet…ha ha NOT! I’ve been under quite a bit of stress lately. It’s actually time to relax, smile and re-energize. Beach bound Nothing like a little bay area fresh air to clear the mind.
Wishing you all a great weekend, or great work week. I’ll be leaving you with a quote I love so, so much and truly live by. At least I try
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