Isn’t it crazy how you can be totally crazy about something and wake up one morning and all the sudden say F* it, I’m over it? It’s like when you’re going through a bad situation, you feel like it’s never-ending. Will it ever get better? Amazingly it does. The chaos that was once so dynamic is now inactive. You come to a point where you’ve realized it’s just not worth it anymore. You can only give yourself so much. You run on fumes, tired and frustrated. Your patience is short, you’re just not really happy. Your energy is focused on something that isn’t giving you anything but grief in return. All the excuses for putting up with it aren’t good enough anymore.
Ultimately you have to know what you really want. I mean, what kind of life do you really want? Shit is always going to happen. In our work life, family, friends, your partner…shit is always going to happen. The thing is, you can actually control how you let it affect you. For me, I tend to over think. I let things eat at me when I shouldn’t. It’s just who I am and no matter what it’s never going to change. But I think I’m better at controlling my emotions than I use to be. I don’t hold on to anger like I use to. I don’t think it’s just age that has helped me. I think it’s also the desire to want to be better. I always try to be better. Therefore I’m always growing and learning so much. Transformation is great. I look back and pat myself on the back
Anyways, yes, I’m over it now. Took me a bit of time, yes. But I’m a thorough person, LOL. I need to work through everything carefully and figure it out for myself. People are always going to talk. I listen, somewhat. But at the end of the day I have to be happy with the decisions I make regarding my life. I mean, it’s my life. Just like your life is your life. We need to do what makes us happy. Sometimes we hurt people along the way. Not intentionally. We only have one life, a short one at that. So I’m going to live it. I can’t stand being stagnate…not progressing, just existing. That’s torturous. Why would I want that? Why would you?
Basically, get the f* over it and move on. Focus on yourself. On being happy. We ALL should have more happy memories and less painful, lonely and angry memories.
I think I’m gonna start video blogging. Here and there…what do you think? Maybe my next post, we’ll see